I do not remember

if I have been here before, stared into this chasm and tried to find the void in the concrete at the bottom of the wash,

tried to see the stars by staring into the sun

until the world around me was white.

and I cannot remember

if I have been here before, sitting in the dark and trying to understand how to get up when it feels like drowning,

and how to swim even when the river has dried up,

and there is no-thing left

but

bare

concrete.

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