hypergraphia

Atheism

bereishis bara: when gxd began to create Heaven and Earth, gxd had waited aeons for the moment when all of before was about to collapse inward upon itself.

gxd blinking

was a split-second lapse between the river of that unfathomable consciousness and where the earth was unformed, amorphous void that began to take shape.

es hashamayim ve'es ha'aretz: when before it was indistinct from the river, darkness over the surface where the river was, and then where the river was not as the bank and river's edge took shape, solidified, became real in someone's memory far in the future out of myth and out of legend.

the spirit of gxd unbounded over the river, over the water;

in that moment then Heaven snaps, collapsing into supernovae, implode and suddenly every-thing exists, and no-thing, and every-thing, all at the same time; the unfathomable consciousness divides itself into countless nebulae spread across the night sky, across the distances where only gxd's unfathomable consciousness and those that were like gxd could reach.

and gxd said;

and the river coalesced into the ocean and the ocean flowed upwards into Heaven and into boundless stars.

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when all is said and done how

am I supposed to move forward, if I can only remember how it ended; the noise of a hospital hallway and praying. and that it's nothing, and I am supposed to just go home; go back to work.

but it's not that simple.

now gxd sits alone, underneath the freeway overpass waiting for the morning.

all of these ideas used to be dreams that I have forgotten how to have;

all of these paths are roads going forward just with a ramp and a rail where stairs were, where stars were.

I am sitting alone on the edge of the freeway overpass, searching for gxd. I am awake.

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