when all is said and done how

am I supposed to move forward, if I can only remember how it ended; the noise of a hospital hallway and praying. and that it's nothing, and I am supposed to just go home; go back to work.

but it's not that simple.

now gxd sits alone, underneath the freeway overpass waiting for the morning.

all of these ideas used to be dreams that I have forgotten how to have;

all of these paths are roads going forward just with a ramp and a rail where stairs were, where stars were.

I am sitting alone on the edge of the freeway overpass, searching for gxd. I am awake.

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